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Journal Entry: Mon Jun 2, 2008, 6:16 AM
  • Mood: Agony
  • Listening to: .
  • Reading: .
  • Watching: .
  • Playing: .
  • Eating: .
  • Drinking: .
Thou shalt bee warned!

My mind is a very dangerous place.
Either you have a great sense of humor and love for imaginary places and situations... or else you'll think: "Hey, This chick's Fecked up, Yo?"

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i'm not ok
i'm not ok
i'm not ok
i'm not ok
i'm not ok
i'm not ok
i'm not ok
i'm not ok
i'm not ok
i'm not ok
i'm not ok
i'm not ok
i'm not ok
i'm not ok
i'm not ok


I AM NOT OK! .|.

Tired of crying.
Tired of putting up with GY and MY DAD'S crap, especially...
I MEAN
He could be the greatest guy in one day and in the next one he's the most annoying S.O.B. I have ever met!!!
I don't feel right and he makes me feel even worse. IF I AM FEELING SO BAD, WHY AM I FORCED TO SMILE? I MEAN, SCREW THIS SHIT!
I can't frown! I must wear a stupid smile on my face as if I was the happiest person alive!!!
I AM TIRED OF WEARING A MASK! .|.

I AM PISSED! I have never been this pissed in my whole life!
Everything keeps getting worse.
I'm a contradiction to myself. I wanna be alone and don't want to at the same time.
I wanna get shit outta my chest but I don't want to bother anyone.
Everyone has got their own crap to put up with. They don't have to put up with mine aswell.
ANOTHER EXAMPLE!!!
If I don't want to bother people with my crap, WHY EVEN BOTHER WRITTING THIS??? I'm so stupid. But fuck it. To lazy to erase it now.
SO YEAH.

-sighs- Some one put me out of my misery... I'm shitty enough not to be able to do it on my own...

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGHHH!!!!! Dx



Sorry for bothering and cursing.

Yes.

I AM NOT OK.

I want to disappear...





I think I need help...

A mad creature of the night

Journal Entry: Sun May 11, 2008, 9:01 AM
  • Mood: Angsty
  • Listening to: AFI - Miseria Cantare
  • Reading: .......
  • Watching: Axel ... <3
  • Playing: ...
  • Eating: Your Flesh
  • Drinking: Your Blood
Thou shalt bee warned!

My mind is a very dangerous place. :XD:
Or you have a great sense of humor and love for imaginary places and situations... or else you'll think: "Hey, This chick's Fecked up, Yo?"

And Yes... I love Axel. Deal with it. The guy rocks and kicks ass so... yeah. Cool! :salute:

eh eh eh... Right On! :devilish:

YAY! My Beloved Sister's FanClub Finally has an Avatar!!!
:icondj-uni-mekajufanclub:
Join If you Apreciate her art! Personally I love her Art! :love:
Here's her page :icondj-uni-mekaju:

:dance:

No offense intended to anyone who likes Yaoi (Mention's newly added stamp x'D)
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(I wrote this just.... because. It's disgusting. And Bloody. I warned you.)



I hear your steps as you run away from me... I know you're running from me. I can scent your fear.
But... you showld know better. You should know you can't hide from me... and your poor human heart will be worn out after so many infuriated blood pumps...

Blood...

What I hunt for...

I would hunt for nothing less...

If I was not as mad...

I hear a loud thud. I know you fell. I heard you swear. Hah.
Your body as given up although your conscience yells in despair, trying to get your sore muscles to pull you up. But they won't obey. They don't think as you do. They already gave up on this desperate run.

Your time as come. I watch you stare at me as I approach slowly... my heels hitting the concrete... my eyes on yours...
my twisted smirk.

Don't think your begging and your crying will make me take pity on you...
They'll make me hungrier... they'll increase my will to tear you appart and eat you.

You cower in fear as I sit on you... wrapping my hands around your throat... feeling your blood
pulse ever so fevereshly.

Your brown eyes wide open... my red eyes half shut... my twisted smirk approaching...

Your shrieks of pain fall silent in the dark night. No one cares. No one dares to open a shutter and see what's going on.
It's just us two...

The sound of the flesh being ripped out from your face... turning your annoying face into a shapeless form of meat.
You scream in agony as you watch me eating every single chunk of meat I bite from off of you...
My nails piercing your flesh...

Faceless and still alive... that's what you are... I watch you die in pain... your throat so tired from screaming...
You're giving up...

But no...

You won't die...

Not from this, I can assure you...

Your tired voice screams like it never screamed before...
My twisted smirk leads you to know... I am not up to any good at all... oh no I am not.

Still pumping... on my hands... still connected to its veins and arteries. Can you see it?
Yes , my prey.
That is your heart on my hands.
I hold it in front of you... just high enough so you can see it...
And low enough to keep it attached to its vessels and pumping...

Is it hurting?

Good...

It will hurt more...

I feel the scent of your heart as your half-dead soul begs me to spare your deformed body...
Not a chance my prey.

I drain you off your blood through your heart vessels... just like a straw...
Your soul as left you long ago...
Suffering as much as your body.
Do I care?

Most certainly not.

I lick my blood stained hands...
I stand up as the rain falls... was it waiting for your demise? Who knows...
The rain washed this sin off my skin... all the blood streamed down my face...
My clothes...
My hands...
I leave... to return in the next night fall...

A hunt for a hunt.

I am the prey because I'm different. Because I no longer live.

And you are the prey because... well... because it is entertaining to watch you scream... in vain.

Hah.

So entertaining.

So I promised to myself.

I am no longer a prey.

From this night on... Nothing else I shall be...

But...

The Hunter.

Haha coisinha sem piada . . .

Journal Entry: Sat Apr 26, 2008, 5:26 PM
  • Mood: Suffering
  • Listening to: ...
  • Reading: ....... :B
  • Watching: Axel ...
  • Playing: ...
  • Eating: ...
  • Drinking: ...
Thou shalt bee warned!

My mind is a very dangerous place. :XD:
Or you have a great sense of humor and love for imaginary places and situations... or else you'll think: "Hey, This chick's Fecked up, Yo?"

And Yes... I love Axel. Deal with it. The guy rocks and kicks ass so... yeah. Cool! :salute:

eh eh eh... Right On! :devilish:

YAY! My Beloved Sister's FanClub Finally has an Avatar!!!
:icondj-uni-mekajufanclub:
Join If you Apreciate her art! Personally I love her Art! :love:
Here's her page :icondj-uni-mekaju:

:dance:

No offense intended to anyone who likes Yaoi (Mention's newly added stamp x'D)
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Info
[X] I am shorter than 5'4.
[X] I think I'm ugly.
[X] I have many scars. (not many, but a few)
[X] I tan easily.
[X] I wish my hair was a different color.
[ ] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[X] I am self-conscious about my appearance.
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses.
[X] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
[X] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[ ] I have freckles.

Family/Home Life
[X] I've sworn at my parents.
[ ] I've run away from home.
[ ] I've been kicked out of the house.
[X] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[ ] I want to have kids someday.
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[X] I'm in school
[X] I have a job
[X] I've fallen asleep at work/school
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[X] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year
[ ] I've stolen something from my job
[ ] I've been fired

Embarrassment
[X] I've slipped out an "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[ ] Disney movies still make me cry.
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[X] I've snorted while laughing.
[X] I've laughed so hard I've cried.
[X] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[ ] I was born with a disease/impairment
[X] I've gotten stitches/staples
[X] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[ ] I've sat in a doctor’s office/emergency room with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[X] I've driven over 200 miles in one day.
[ ] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada.
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[X] I've been to Europe. (I live there ¬¬;)
[ ] I've been to Africa.


Experiences
[X] I've gotten lost in my city.
[X] I've seen a shooting star.
[X] I've wished on a shooting star
[ ] I've seen a meteor shower.
[X] I've gone out in public in my pajamas.
[X] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[X] I've kicked a guy where it hurts.
[ ] I've been to a casino.
[ ] I've been skydiving.
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[ ] I've played spin the bottle.
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[ ] I've crashed a car.
[ ] I've been Skiing.
[X] I've been in a play.
[ ] I've met someone in person from myspace.
[ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue.
[ ] I've seen the Northern lights.
[X] I've sat on a roof top at night.
[ ] I've played chicken.
[X] I've played a prank on someone.
[X] I've ridden in a taxi.
[ ] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[X] I'm single.
[ ] I'm in a relationship.
[ ] I'm engaged.
[ ] I'm married.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[ ] I miss someone right now.
[ ] I have a fear of abandonment.
[ ] I've gotten divorced.
[ ] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[ ] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex.
[ ] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[X] I am a cuddler.
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[X] I've hugged a stranger.
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[X] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't.
[X] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't.
[ ] I've snuck out of my house.
[X] I have lied to my parents about where I am.
[X] I am keeping a secret from the world. (Who isn't?)
[X] I've cheated while playing a game.
[X] I've cheated on a test.
[ ] I've run a red light.
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[X] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.

Drugs/Alcohol
[X] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[ ] I've smoked weed
[ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[ ] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder.
[ ] I shut others out when I'm depressed.
[ ] I take anti-depressants.
[ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic.
[X] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it.
[X] I've hurt myself on purpose.
[X] I've woken up crying.

Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying.
[ ] I hate funerals.
[ ] I've seen someone dying.
[ ] Someone close to me has attempted suicide.
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide.
[ ] I've planned my own suicide.
[X] I've attempted suicide.
[ ] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[X] I own an iPod or MP3 player.
[X] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.
[ ] I own something from Pac Sun.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[ ] I own something from The Gap.
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie.


Random
[ ] I can sing well.
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[ ] I open up to others easily. You ask me a question I'm most likely going to answer it.
[X] I watch the news.
[X] I don't kill bugs.
[ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[X] I curse regularly.
[X] I sing in the shower.
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone.
[ ] I'm a snob about grammar.
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[X] I twirl my hair.
[X] I have "x"s in my screen name.
[ ] I love being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day.
[X] I bake well.
[X] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or BLACK
[X] I've worn pajamas to school.
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[ ] I know how to shoot a gun
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I laugh at my own jokes.
[ ] I eat fast food weekly.
[ ] I believe in a god
[ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[X] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[X] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails.
[X] I play video games.
[ ] I'm good at remembering faces.
[ ] I'm good at remembering names.
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates.
[X] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.



HEY OH A PIRATE'S LIFE FER ME ! .|.



*Crawls into EMO corner xD*

NOES >:B

Journal Entry: Mon Apr 21, 2008, 8:23 AM
  • Mood: Humor
  • Listening to: computuh FAN ! >:B
  • Reading: ....... :B
  • Watching: Axel ... doing something EBIL
  • Playing: nepia
  • Eating: SAMMICH
  • Drinking: niente
Thou shalt bee warned!

My mind is a very dangerous place. :XD:
Or you have a great sense of humor and love for imaginary places and situations... or else you'll think: "Hey, This chick's Fecked up, Yo?"

And Yes... I love Axel. Deal with it. The guy rocks and kicks ass so... yeah. Cool! :salute:

eh eh eh... Right On! :devilish:

YAY! My Beloved Sister's FanClub Finally has an Avatar!!!
:icondj-uni-mekajufanclub:
Join If you Apreciate her art! Personally I love her Art! :love:
Here's her page :icondj-uni-mekaju:

:dance:

No offense intended to anyone who likes Yaoi (Mention's newly added stamp x'D)
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Another... thingy... dunno the name . :iconexcitedplz: :fart: :burp: :iconspazplz:

1.) Put your media player of choice on shuffle.
2.) List the first fifteen songs that come up add "in my pants" to the end.
3.) Bold the ones that actually made you LOL.


1. Right here in my arms in my pants . ( Wut ? O.o )
2. Edge of the Earth in my pants . ( OH NOES ! )
3. Gimme more in my pants . ( HOLY SHIZ I'M A HO D= x'DDDD )
4. Lovers condemn in my pants . ( What the... O.o )
5. Special needs in my pants . (OMG I'M A HO AGAIN ! D= X'DDDD )
6. Easier to run in my pants . ( Is it ? x'D )
7. Umbrella in my pants . ( JESUS !!! )
8. Beautiful in my pants . ( Huuh.... O____o )
9. Join me in my pants . ( OMG !!! NOT AGAIN ! X'DDDDD )
10. How to save a life in my pants . ( ..... huh? xD )
11. In love and lonely in my pants . ( WHAT THE CRAP !? X'DDDDDDD )
12. Dead! in my pants . ( HOLY FOOK X'DDDD )
13. The Sacrament in my pants . ( OMG WHAT ??? X'D )
14. You are the one in my pants . ( LOOOOOL!!!! X'DDDDDD)
15. Vamos Foder in my pants . ( HOLY CRAP ! You people don't need to know what it means , srsly X'DDDDD )


I LOL'ed . Hard . *Pelvic thrusts xDDD*
I needs to get HIM (the band xD) Out of my list when I do these things . :iconroflzplz:

Shakazulu xD

Journal Entry: Thu Apr 17, 2008, 1:43 PM
  • Mood: Tired
  • Listening to: TV CHIT CHAT
  • Reading: ....... :B
  • Watching: Axel sleeping.
  • Playing: nepia
  • Eating: nicles
  • Drinking: niente
Thou shalt bee warned!

My mind is a very dangerous place. :XD:
Or you have a great sense of humor and love for imaginary places and situations... or else you'll think: "Hey, This chick's Fecked up, Yo?"

And Yes... I love Axel. Deal with it. The guy rocks and kicks ass so... yeah. Cool! :salute:

eh eh eh... Right On! :devilish:

YAY! My Beloved Sister's FanClub Finally has an Avatar!!!
:icondj-uni-mekajufanclub:
Join If you Apreciate her art! Personally I love her Art! :love:
Here's her page :icondj-uni-mekaju:

:dance:

No offense intended to anyone who likes Yaoi (Mention's newly added stamp x'D)
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I GOTZ TAGGED BY KERHYS ! :noes: :XD: :iconemotionallytwisted:


1. WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (mother & father's middle name)
Maria Pedro (O_o X'D)

2. NASCAR NAME: (first name of your mother's dad, father's dad)
Henrique Isidoro (WOW WHAT A NAME ! X'D)

3. STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)
Zegana (LOLz º3º )

4. DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color, favorite animal)
Black Crow (DUN DUN DUUUUN)

5. SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Luís Lisbon (WHAT ? XD)

6. SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning)
The Red Coke (HUH? XD)

7. FLY NAME: (first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name)
Anre (What the... ? )

8. GANGSTA NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, fav cookie)
Lemon Oreo (Might exist one day xDDD)

9. ROCK STAR NAME: (current pets name, current street name)
Big Varandas do Mar (WTF????? X'DDDDDDDDD)

10. STRIPPER NAME: (name of your fav perfume/cologne, fav candy)
B U Wild Milka (*murders self xDDD*)

11. PORN NAME: (1st pet, street you grew up on)
Felix José Afonso (I just completely died... srsly xDDDDDD)



I dun tag anyone -3- xDDD


AND ZOMG!!!! IT'S RAINNING AS HECK! I FEWKIN LOVE IT! :excited:
I just... dun like power failures :paranoid: :XD:

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